sick to my stomach

Okay. I feel horrible right now. I can say I did start studying, and that is probably the only good thing that happened tonight.

Left Front Tire - Bring You Down
I feel frustration sometimes
when the words don't come out right.
Footprints in the Sand reveals
to me a past scene of my life.
Please stand by me through
the thick and thin,
though the trials of my life.
He's dealing with me now...
I turn around you're doing it again...
you're doing it again.
I'm not trying to bring you down.
I just want you to see
what is happening to me.
I'm not trying to bring you down.
Just understand that I
was blind but I'm learning to see.
I've ran long enough from
what I know is right.
The sands of yesterday are
sliding through the clutched fingers of life.
I'm not saying that the fun is gone,
or the times we had are in vain.
There's a break in the wilderness.
My narrow path is clearing again...
it's clearing once again.
I'm not trying to bring you down.
I just want you to see
what is happening to me.
I'm not trying to bring you down.
Just understand that I
was blind but I'm learning to see.
I'm not trying to bring you down.
I just want you to see
what is happening to me.
I'm not trying to bring you down.
Just understand that I
was blind but I'm learning to see.

I really want to do my assignment. I do! I almost just did it today. I don't know what stopped me. It is just like well twenty thousand people have opinions on things and I don't know what to do. I'm sure things will be O.K. I have a lot more days before I have to finish it. I don't want to leave it for the end, but I want to do it when the time is right. I've never been one to procrastinate (too much); that is for sure. I had to go back and add "too much."

A lot of people had birthdays on Facebook today. I didn't really know one of them but I wrote happy birthday anyways. I guess as long as I had it in my clipboard I could take the few seconds to paste it there too. She is really cute, but I'm probably a nobody to her. I am okay with that. Everyone is bound to be a nobody to someone. Think of all the people on the other side of the world. They don't know I exist, but life goes on anyways. I figure this is probably the same way.

Tonight is kind of a downer night, but I feel like I'm doing better than I was in the past few weeks. It is really hot and muggy in here again. This means that I'm not going to be able to sleep again tonight. Yuck. Tomorrow is Thursday. I think on Friday I might go down to the Piano Lounge alone and just listen. I like that place but no one I know seems to want to go there ever. It is okay to enjoy myself alone every once and awhile right?