hard to imagine

The last few weeks have gone by very quickly.  I ended up getting sick two weeks ago, and I’ve been pretty busy studying.  Things are just settling into place I guess.  I like hanging out with all of the people in my class.  One of the things that I’ve found it hard to do is find time for old friends.  I really miss them, and I don’t really have any excuses.  I’m just busy and need to find time.  I do like when I do get to talk to them though.

I’m not really sure where everything is going at this point.  I have an idea in my head but I’m not sure that it is going to work out.  We’ll see… I won’t know for awhile.

On another note it is looking more and more like another Florida bowl game for Iowa.  If they can pull off the win next week I’d be excited to go to the Rose Bowl, but the brick wall in front of them is pretty big.  I think the Capitol One Bowl is the best shot.  In any case the trip will be fun, and a much deserved break from school.

I think it is bedtime.

test(ed)

I have four exams this week.  A week ago I was afraid of it; but once I just convinced myself that it is how it is going to be I’ve been able to come to terms about it.  No point on worrying about having four; I have to take them no matter what.  I get rewarded by the Iowa/Michigan game at the end of the week!  If it doesn’t work out it could be worse… I could be a cyclone.

My second molars are rhomboidal.  If only they were heart-shaped.

zzzzzzzzzzzzz…

Studying teeth!  That is how I am spending my night.  I am getting a few mixed up, but hopefully I can work those problems out.  I’m taking a short break.  I am very tired though; I don’t know how long I’ll be able to study.

Next week is going to be a lot of work.  I have four tests!  This week I have two, but they aren’t as bad.  I really need to get my studying done this week, and I think I’ll be able to do it successfully.

This weekend was fun.  I went to Mission of Mercy to help out; I felt like it was a wonderful experience for me.  I learned a lot, and saw some of what we were talking about in ethics class.  It was interesting.  Later I went to watch the football game with Ben.  I think he had a wonderful time; we also celebrated his birthday.  His girlfriend probably hates me!  He had a good time though ;-).

I’m trying to decide if I want to buy Packers tickets for when they play in Chicago.  They’re expensive :-/ and I also bought 3EB tickets for November.  I would love to go to the football game, but I don’t know if it is worth it to spend THAT much money to go.  Especially if Iowa goes bowling; I’ll probably want to do that and I won’t have enough money to do both.

Alright I need to get back to studying so I can turn in early.  Hopefully I can keep my head on straight for the next two weeks.

asprin

I see this poster at the library everyday and I feel like it is me.  Someday the mask will come off.

cookie monster

Someone at the rest of my cookie.  I’m sad.  I was going to have that for dessert tonight.  My birthdays always suck.  I don’t even get to eat my own cookie.

To state the obvious tomorrow is Friday.  I did well on my test this week.  I should have done better, but I can do that next time.  I’m going to go study because I have nothing else to do.

Darn cookie. :-(

time to write

I’ve had a very stressful last few weeks.  I maybe came a little too full circle.  I’m beginning to wonder if I made the “right” decision with respect to where I’m headed in life.  I just don’t feel like I am my own person.  Maybe I’m not aggressive enough socially; or maybe I care too much about others.  I know it is what you put into things that matters, and that you can’t control what others give back.

My birthday was kind of fun except for a few things.  I had a HUGE fight with my girlfriend.  I’m not really happy with her now.  We’ll leave it at that.  I’ve started to wonder if I need more time to grow alone as a person.  Things are hard now.  I miss my old friends that have moved on with their lives.  I try to be friendly, but I just don’t feel like other people like me.

I’m just doubting a lot of things in my life right now. :-/  Time will sort it all out, and it might get worse before it gets better.

Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.

-Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

engineering

I finally miss it.  On the walk home I realized I was a graduate.  I’m no longer in the college.  I miss all the people the most.  The late nights staying there working on our wind turbine; then going to Vitos for a good time afterwards.

I ran into Andy there the other day.  I miss hanging out with him.  He is a great guy.  I feel like I’ve been torn between friends.  I feel like I am struggling to make new ones; as always.  I just feel like I can’t let go of my old ones.  I love the people I was with the last four years too much.  I would drop anything for any of them.  They’re the greatest.

I think I finally hit that moment where I miss it.  The moment came sooner after high school, and in a different way.  Now I just feel like well everyone moved on.  I’m not ready to move on.  I am glad I’m where I landed, and it is what I want to do.  I just didn’t take advantage of my first few years in college.  The last year has been the best year of my life.  No doubt.  A year ago from this coming Saturday kicked it off.  I went to Pittsburgh, Chicago for the first time since I was young, Memphis, and Mexico.  I traveled more than ever.  I also took advantage of the most opportunities.  I coached two sports; I worked as a TA, and I was a summer camp counselor.  The last one was a life long dream, and it happened.  It is going to be tough to top all of this; I lived the best year of my life.  I shouldn’t expect anything less this next coming year, but I think my goals are different.

I only missed one question on my test today.  :-) I guess my new strategy is working.  Three tests next week :-D.  Bring them on.