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Studying teeth!  That is how I am spending my night.  I am getting a few mixed up, but hopefully I can work those problems out.  I’m taking a short break.  I am very tired though; I don’t know how long I’ll be able to study.

Next week is going to be a lot of work.  I have four tests!  This week I have two, but they aren’t as bad.  I really need to get my studying done this week, and I think I’ll be able to do it successfully.

This weekend was fun.  I went to Mission of Mercy to help out; I felt like it was a wonderful experience for me.  I learned a lot, and saw some of what we were talking about in ethics class.  It was interesting.  Later I went to watch the football game with Ben.  I think he had a wonderful time; we also celebrated his birthday.  His girlfriend probably hates me!  He had a good time though ;-).

I’m trying to decide if I want to buy Packers tickets for when they play in Chicago.  They’re expensive :-/ and I also bought 3EB tickets for November.  I would love to go to the football game, but I don’t know if it is worth it to spend THAT much money to go.  Especially if Iowa goes bowling; I’ll probably want to do that and I won’t have enough money to do both.

Alright I need to get back to studying so I can turn in early.  Hopefully I can keep my head on straight for the next two weeks.

asprin

I see this poster at the library everyday and I feel like it is me.  Someday the mask will come off.

cookie monster

Someone at the rest of my cookie.  I’m sad.  I was going to have that for dessert tonight.  My birthdays always suck.  I don’t even get to eat my own cookie.

To state the obvious tomorrow is Friday.  I did well on my test this week.  I should have done better, but I can do that next time.  I’m going to go study because I have nothing else to do.

Darn cookie. :-(

time to write

I’ve had a very stressful last few weeks.  I maybe came a little too full circle.  I’m beginning to wonder if I made the “right” decision with respect to where I’m headed in life.  I just don’t feel like I am my own person.  Maybe I’m not aggressive enough socially; or maybe I care too much about others.  I know it is what you put into things that matters, and that you can’t control what others give back.

My birthday was kind of fun except for a few things.  I had a HUGE fight with my girlfriend.  I’m not really happy with her now.  We’ll leave it at that.  I’ve started to wonder if I need more time to grow alone as a person.  Things are hard now.  I miss my old friends that have moved on with their lives.  I try to be friendly, but I just don’t feel like other people like me.

I’m just doubting a lot of things in my life right now. :-/  Time will sort it all out, and it might get worse before it gets better.

Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.

-Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

engineering

I finally miss it.  On the walk home I realized I was a graduate.  I’m no longer in the college.  I miss all the people the most.  The late nights staying there working on our wind turbine; then going to Vitos for a good time afterwards.

I ran into Andy there the other day.  I miss hanging out with him.  He is a great guy.  I feel like I’ve been torn between friends.  I feel like I am struggling to make new ones; as always.  I just feel like I can’t let go of my old ones.  I love the people I was with the last four years too much.  I would drop anything for any of them.  They’re the greatest.

I think I finally hit that moment where I miss it.  The moment came sooner after high school, and in a different way.  Now I just feel like well everyone moved on.  I’m not ready to move on.  I am glad I’m where I landed, and it is what I want to do.  I just didn’t take advantage of my first few years in college.  The last year has been the best year of my life.  No doubt.  A year ago from this coming Saturday kicked it off.  I went to Pittsburgh, Chicago for the first time since I was young, Memphis, and Mexico.  I traveled more than ever.  I also took advantage of the most opportunities.  I coached two sports; I worked as a TA, and I was a summer camp counselor.  The last one was a life long dream, and it happened.  It is going to be tough to top all of this; I lived the best year of my life.  I shouldn’t expect anything less this next coming year, but I think my goals are different.

I only missed one question on my test today.  :-) I guess my new strategy is working.  Three tests next week :-D.  Bring them on.

lunch

It is lunchtime.  I am done with my third test of the year.  I think I need to come up with a new studying pattern.  I’m just getting into things, and I’m not doing poorly but I am missing a few more problems than I would like.  Today I mixed up two amino acids and they were present in two questions.  Other than that I think the test went okay.  We shall see though.

I’m enjoying most of the work in the labs.  I am going in this afternoon to work on waxing a tooth.  I think it will come in handy for the next lab practical.  I still have to study for my test Friday and complete an assignment for tomorrow tonight.  Maybe I can change a habit or two for Friday and see how it works out.  I don’t feel the need to ace exams, but I want to do a little bit better.