not even a penny

The one thing I care about most in my life doesn't seem to be working out. It just really sucks. I work so hard and then end up with a horrific feeling inside. I've tried but you can't really change how others feel.

I have improved my life in so many areas but all of that doesn't make up for the lacking in others. I just wish things weren't so difficult sometimes. Maybe there is a reason for the things that happen in my life.

I know the brick walls are there for me to show me how bad I want it, but I can only bust through so many. The biggest one seems to be getting taller and taller. Sigh. Maybe someday.

I feel worthless right now.