i need a little time to make sense how i got so high so fast....""

Looks like it has been ten days. I'm writing less; that is probably because I am happier. Actually I know it is. Writing has been something that I've enjoyed doing. Every time I've done it I have not lasted too long. I think this is probably the longest I've lasted.

I think I'll continue to write; hopefully more than I have this last week! I enjoy it. This week has gone by fast. I had a great time again in Kansas City. It created many memories that I will remember for the rest of my life; my first NFL game, my first time out in KC, my first time being publicly embarrassed at a bar, and a few other memories that will give me stories to tell as I am older.

Thanksgiving was fun too. I made a apple pie for my mommy and daddy. I am so happy for them and their new house. It is nice. I want to have a romantic date with my girlfriend there when they're gone; make dinner there (because I love cooking), eat at the table with candles and then cuddle on the couch by the fireplace and watch a movie. It would be enjoyable. I have some other dates that I'd like to do but this is the one that I want the most.

She is going to meet my parents soon too :-P. I was nervous about asking her because I didn't know where she was at in the relationship; right after I asked her she invited me to meet hers in Chicago too. I'm nervous about going there and meeting them. I'm a nice boy but I don't think the parents from my previous relationship really liked me all that much so I'm a little scared.

The wedding was fun! I was on my seventh beer and my mom looked at me and just shook her head. I danced with her too! Some swing dancing o.O. She didn't know much of the advanced stuff but I got to do the moves she did know with her. I think she enjoyed it. My daddy took some pictures (they're computers aren't set up at the new house so I'll have to get them later).

Lindsay had some beverages too and I asked her if she was going to catch the bouquet! She said, "I hope so!" It was cute. I haven't talked to Aaron about it; I hope he is just waiting until he starts his real job so he can buy her a nice ring because she deserves it.

They're in the kitchen cooking I think. Cute.

Last note; I put up my Christmas lights! They were expensive but I thought I should go for the LED ones to be eco-friendly. A few extra dollars will be worth it; especially if others do their part too. It all adds up!

half day off(ish)

Woot! So hump day is almost officially over; this week has been interesting. I have been super busy (like I said). I am so glad to be done with my wind turbine project for the week. I did so much work on it tonight it is crazy.

I just have one test, one paper, and one presentation left until Friday afternoon and a big ass beer at Bo James with Nanci.

Last night my day was made by Christie. She was thinking of me! She was going to stop by after her rehearsal at Carver, but I was at the SC; and then she sent me a text saying I should come out to where she dropped me off the night before. I did and she had a yummy pastry for me and a few kisses. It totally made my day. I was actually kind of bummed that I wasn't at home and then she showed up like she was reading my mind. :-D.

I got my offer today. I'm so excited! I just wish I knew all my options right now. The first time I can hear from the others is December 1st. Honestly I'm just lost at what I want to do. Blarg. I am super confused with my life right now. I need to come up with the reasons that I would like to do each option. The amount of money that was offered just hasn't sunk in yet; it is good. I'm sure it will within the next few weeks. I know if I do take the job I'll be in good hands with the company. They treat their employees so well; something that goes a long way with me.

Well nothing due until Friday now. Nighty night.

b-l-a-r-g

Homework is smelly. I got a lot done today but I still have a lot to do. I have two projects that are due this week. The report for one is done but we still have a presentation to do on it. The other report will get worked on tomorrow night along with two homework assignments that I have to do for the same class. I also have a test Wednesday. Hooray for me!

I need to study for that one; I missed that class quite a bit due to my interviews that were going on. Ahh! Stressful. I will have to make that decision in December too; something I'm trying to avoid. I kind of have this feeling about it. If I do get any options I'm going to take my friends out to dinner. I know where we'd go too; it won't be cheap.

I can imagine the dinner right now. It will have the feeling of the NFL draft because I'll be the only one that knows what I'm going to do next year and I have this vision of everyone sitting around waiting with great anticipation to hear what I'm going to decide. Everyone knows all of the things that I've applied for but I haven't really told anyone what I really want to do. I am keeping that to myself. I think the decision is mine and that is really all that it comes down to. It is my life so I have to make the decision. I doubt I will tell my friends the results of what happens until dinner that night.

Dinner tonight was fun. I feel kind of bad; something I said came out wrong. I hope she didn't read into it too much; the fact that I am is probably meaning that she did as well. I meant to say that I'd rather be at the movie with Matt than doing homework, but it came out as at the movie than what I was doing at the moment (which was dinner with her). I think both are about equal; I want to have time for her and time for friends.

I gave her the printout of the poster that I am having made! I hope she likes it. The poster is still being made for her but I wanted to give it to her because her last day marching was Saturday.

Oh; she picked to go to Bennigans for me and it made me really happy! I feel like a little kid because she did that for me.

finishing up

Well I made it through today. I got to take an 1:30 nap. I think without that it would have been rough. I was dozing off in class because I hadn't had any sleep. It really sucked! I bet I looked pretty stupid. I think staying up all night was the right thing to do. She really liked the help with her paper and I enjoyed doing it. I think it also showed her that I'm willing to go out of my way to help her out.

I get to see her again tonight :)! I'm excited!

Kansas City was fun! Wow; they really took care of me. I was impressed with the food. I think I ate more at dinner before the main dish arrived than I eat all day. It was very very tasty food. I liked seeing Kansas City too. I really liked the area in the Plaza by the art museum. It reminded me of the Old Capital area; which is my favorite on campus.

I think some of my fears about moving to a new place were put to rest too. I guess all but one. I began to learn the city a bit because I drove around on my own and I could remember where I was going. I don't think it would be that hard to acclimate to learn new directions and such. That is one thing that I was worried about. I think there is plenty to do as well. The culture seems to be something that I would enjoy.

I was also impressed with the company. Everything was new and really nice. The work environment was also friendly. As we were walking through I started to imagine how I would decorate my cubical. I found that kind of humorous.

I guess all I can do now is wait. Interviews are done as well as the visit. I still can't believe how nice it was. It was kind of unreal.

I also had some free time to see Steve. Here is a picture of us from dinner. He has such a nice family. His daughter was so cute. I couldn't believe it. I kind of want one now; even though he and his wife said that I shouldn't ever have kids. Who knows. Maybe someday. I guess I need to update my To-Do List. I best get that set and then move on to get my Thank Yous written for the recruiters and some homework done.

can i make it 36 hours? let's hope so

So yeah! I haven't slept in exactly 24 hours. Kansas City was amazing. I have to get to class and I will write about it later. I got back at 1:00 last night and my girlfriend was frustrated so I went over and helped her with her paper all night. I enjoyed it. We'll see how today goes. It is super busy.

whew

Someone just read my mind tonight. I'm so glad she called. I really needed to get that out. I hope she didn't mind talking that long. I know she doesn't really like talking on the phone but I do. Tonight was by far the longest that we have ever talked.

I am heading to Kansas City tomorrow morning (hopefully). I say hopefully because of the weather. My parents are wanting me to stay home if the weather is bad. I'm kind of upset because this is something that I've been looking forward towards all month. I'm really excited to visit places that provide opportunities for me. It makes me want them even more. I hope the weather holds of so I can go.

Swing dancing tonight was amazing. I felt like I got something accomplished. I wasn't the greatest because I missed last week but I actually was able to put a lot of things together. I really enjoy the activity; it is non-competitive for me, I get to meet a lot of different people, and I get to be active. All the people there are really nice! I definitely was in a state of "flow" there today. The hour went by so fast.

I need to get to bed. Tell Old Man Winter to hold off until Monday!

fun filled weekend

Yay! There is lots of good news going around this weekend. Last night was fun, today was fun, tomorrow will be fun, and Tuesday and Wednesday will be fun!

Yesterday I had dinner with a friend. It was really good; I hadn't had homemade tacos in awhile. The dip was super yummy too. I felt bad for one for the girls though because her date didn't show up. She looked kind of sad. After dinner I got to hang out with Matt. We won beer pong again; we've won two in a row together now. I don't think we're that good though. Sometimes you just get lucky.

I had a good walk home this morning. It was snowing and I got to ipod it. I like walking and listening to music. I need new headphones though; I somehow broke the connection on one of the ear buds and it will only work if I push the cord into a certain position.

When I got back I took a power nap and then went and picked up Nanci to have some elkie-hall before the game. All I can say is she is a big lightweight. She made it through the game though. It was a blast. We went to the rec show again; Anna came too and she got to see Mike! I like teasing her about him; I kind of helped her out a little with him. Not much but just a little bit of advice. I got a picture with Christie in her sexy band uniform too. She makes me happy.

I like what she said to me last night. It was so cute; she said that she liked my new facebook picture, and that I shouldn't "ever change" it. I like how she compliments me. It goes a long way because I never really got any compliments from girls in the past. It is nice to know she likes looking at me. She also said some other things that made me really happy the other day.

Iowa won today too! It was amazing. Oh em gee. What a game. I still can't really believe it. The first half Iowa kept it close and then they just pulled through in the second. Wow. What an amazing game. Too bad the rest of the close ones couldn't have turned out the same way.

Bowl game too! I'll probably go this year. o.O

This week is going to be super duper busy. Tomorrow is the first basketball game for Iowa. I think that will be a blast. I also have quite a bit of other activities that I have to do. I'm getting sleepy so I think I'm going to take a power nap before Jen gets back. I made her a pie Thursday but kind of passed out and didn't get to eat it with her.

So the test is really tomorrow. I got a lot of homework done tonight! I also had my first vodka cranberry since my birthday. This one stayed down! I'm proud of myself! My birthday was just a rough night :) and then Pittsburgh. It was pretty T&A.

I yelled a lot today at practice. It didn't seem like the kids really picked up on what I wanted them to work on. I am a little frustrated. I still have to make the lineups for tomorrow. I have an idea but I need to print off the sheet to give to the other coach. I'm a little worried that we won't be able to run the other out of bounds play that I put in.

Okay I'm wasting time now.

rain!

I am up way too late. So I didn't have a test today like I thought! It is actually Thursday. I was kind of freaking out but all is well. This week is a lot less hectic than I presumed it was going to be. Although I wouldn't mind being finished with that test right about now. I'll have to study for it more tomorrow.

As I was driving home tonight it started raining. It was perfect. I love the rain and I had a wonderful evening. It fit together well.

I'm off to bed!

oh the places you'll go

Wow. What a week for me. It hasn't really come to an end because I have a test tomorrow that I have not studied for at all. That is the task for tonight. I did the review sheet in the car but I couldn't find all of the answers. I now have to go over it a lot. I really just want to go to bed. It was a long week, but it was also the best week that I've had in a long time.

I was super stressed out during the whole thing too. I don't really know what to say. After my last interview today I just felt like someone was with me through all of this. I don't really know how I made it through it all. I know I didn't do it alone.

I was impressed with Nebraska too. In a perfect world I'd get into all the schools I want to go to and job offers from all the companies that I want to work for. I doubt that is going to happen. I kind of feel like everything is a long shot. I lack something called confidence. This is something that is not new.

I love my friends! The ones that care wished me luck in various ways. Each had his or her own way of doing it and I really can't express how much it means to me to know that SOMEONE cares about me.

I kind of wish someone would call and ask me how my interview went. I don't know if he/she is going to or not.

hello november

Ahh! Just got back from Illinois. We lost but it was fun and the Hawks put up a good fight. I wish we would have won! It was so fun until they drove the ball down with two minutes left and kicked a field goal.

Halloween there was fun except I am a little frustrated. I got a call from a friend and something was wrong and I would have talked to her but she heard that I was out and didn't want to talk. I texted her right after she hung up and didn't get anything back. I would have stopped anything I was doing to help her feel better. Sometimes things just get at me a little because I want to be there for people.

I should be packing for Nebraska but I am beat and I think I'm going to do that in the morning. I get an extra hour tonight so it can be used wisely.

This week has been one of the best in a long time! It isn't over until Tuesday either! Nebraska here I come :).