what makes your eyes so blue?

The first week of my summer has been quiet interesting. I finally got my hard drive back from WD. It still feels like I'm settling into the computer again. I love having my monitors back, but I still feel naked. I guess that is just how it goes sometimes.

I think I've settled into my work schedule a little. The first day was overwhelming. I guess the job is more independent than I thought, but I think that it is going much better. It seemed like the first day I just sat there shell shocked trying to figure out what the heck I was doing. I will say now that I have a direction, and I think that it will be highly possible to complete the task at hand.

As a few of my friends know I have made a list of things that I would like to do this summer. I feel that circumstances in the past have kept me from being the person that I am. I don't think that it was a bad thing, but I really haven't had a chance to discover who I am. I guess I just grew up too fast; I don't think it was a bad thing, but at this point in my life I should be experimenting more. This is why I decided to make the list.

The first item that I accomplished was to read a book. I thought that I should go to the book store and buy the book I wanted to read. I drove by the bookstore last Sunday after a dinner with my family, and it was closed. I'm glad it was closed. I don't know why I felt as if I had to go and physically buy the book when I could borrow it for free at the library. Let's just say I hadn't been to the library in such a long time that I had been purged from the system.

The book that I chose to read first was "The Last Lecture". I really enjoyed the book, and I think there are things that I personally took away from it. Reading it inspired me to watch the actual lecture on YouTube, but after reading the book it seemed like he had to leave so much out due to the time constraints. I've since read "The Secret" and started another book. I won't get into these much because I don't feel like writing about them at the moment.

The weekend has been fun. Alison came back to see Brittany, Kelly, and her family. That girl is such a doll. I don't know what to think about it anymore. I think I'm more sure about what I'm going to do with my life without her than with her. There are just certain things that have been brought to my attention that are finally sinking in. I think I have proved to myself that I'm not going to settle for anything that isn't a right fit for me. Also it is just one of those things that I'm finally ready to just let happen, but at the same time I'm O.K. if it doesn't happen. If what I want doesn't come along I'm not going to force anything.