First of all it is freezing out. Second of all I'm kind of down right now. I felt like I got picked on a little tonight; and that is fine it was just that a lot of different people did it. It was all playful and in good nature, but sometimes I just let it get to me too much.

I miss someone. I don't like when I have to see things that I want. I think some people take certain things for granted, and honestly I just want to smack them. Wake up; you have the most important thing in the world right in front of you.

The world is full of human lobsters; men stranded on the rocks of indecision and procrastination, who, instead of putting forth their own energies, are waiting for some grand billow of good fortune to set them afloat.

-Orison Swett Marden

let it snow!

First day of break is gone! I finished my last final Wednesday and spent today napping and making Christmas ornaments for my girlfriend and her roommates. I also made them some hot chocolate mix because I wasn't allowed to make them food. I really wanted to make them some Christmas cookies or something, but I guess I've made them too many sweets in the past.

My girlfriend and I have been sick off and on for the last week and a half. It really sucks! All I've wanted to do this week is snuggle. I had to study and was sick at the beginning of the week, and now she is sick and has to study. RAWR. I hope she gets better!

She was drunk one night this week and her friend drove her by my place; she saw my lights and said, "Let me out." It was cute when she told me this. It made my day :-P.

sweaty

Being sick is no fun. I'm fine when I am able to take Tylenol. I just finished my paper. It ended up being 11 pages; I'm pleased with that. I was shooting for 12 or so but I didn't really have anymore to write without being redundant.

I am probably going to wake up tonight covered in sweat again. I hate having the chills. It sucks being freezing and then waking up covered in cold sweat and having to change clothes at 4 AM.

I have a test Friday and then I'm to the weekend. Phew. Tomorrow night is going to be fun. Even if I am sick it is something I've been looking forward to for a long time. Taking my friends out to a nice dinner will be fun. I am so glad that most of them can come! All of them but Christie, but I'll take her out another night. She made me a cake too congratulating me. She thinks what I'm going to do next year is hot. I like that ;-).

So I ate today and it didn't come up! I've had three successful meals in the last three days. Being sick isn't fun. I should get to bed, but before I do I need to post a song (because I haven't in awhile).

I'm not a big fan of the anime but it is the only video with the actual song I wanted. Enjoy.

I wanted to say it tonight.

sickness

I'm starting to get sick. I know it is because of the wonderful weekend I had. I spent too much time out having fun and didn't get much rest. It was worth it though!

Christie met my parents and everything went well! They told me yesterday and today that they really like her :). I'm happy that it went well. I was proud of the way that she answered one of the questions that they asked her. It was so perfect. My whole weekend with her was perfect. The only thing I can complain about was my fault. I made her breakfast in bed on Saturday and I was cleaning the pan and I a piece of the sausage got flung up by the grease and hit my eyelid. It is a little sore but I'm lucky it didn't go in my eye and burn it.

I hope she enjoyed my breakfast. It was fun to eat in my bed and listen to music and then snuggle up for the rest of the morning. I hope she likes the things I do for her. One of her roommate's friend's said that he was jealous about how I "know" what to do to make her happy. It made me feel good, but I don't want someone else to feel inferior about themselves because of what someone else is doing. I've always known I just have needed to be given the chance to show someone how much I care.

I think I'm going to go online and find the rest of Christie's Christmas present. Bedtime after that. I have no energy left; hopefully some sleep will help me feel better.

hooray friday

Long week. I've spent way too much time in the DFM lab. I don't even want to think about it... I spent 12 hours in there today. That doesn't even include the rest of the week. I am SO glad tomorrow is Friday. I've been looking forward to it all week!

I really have. I'd say I wouldn't be so frustrated with the lab if all our group members would show up and work. It has been me and two others the whole time and one person just seems to not want to come. Project has to get done, but seriously?

I enjoy running the CNC mill. It is fun; I broke a drill bit in half when I was learning and my first few pieces sucked quite a bit, but now I'm pretty darn good at running it. We have to make a few more pieces because we cracked one piece when we were putting the turbine together. It looks like with a little more sweat the darn thing is actually going to work. Scary. I'll be happy if it works. I don't really care if it lights up the light bulb, but I do want it to tip out of the wind at high speeds.

I smell like metal shards.

Yay for tomorrow's activities. Dinner with Christie (and my parents!) and then out with Christie's friend and her boyfriend. I'm super excited.

when the morning comes

Tonight was amazing. I went over to Christie's to hang out with her for a bit since we'd been away from each other for a week. I took her a cheesecake I made and some blueberries; it was yummy.

I was only supposed to stay there for a little so she could get her project done; I helped her with it a little, but we kind of got distracted a bit. We checked at midnight to see if I got admitted to grad school or not and nothing was up. Then I left after another hour of watching T.V. while she worked on her project.

The last time I was over helping her with homework she was so stressed out and about ready to give up. We ended up staying up all night and she ended up getting a 93% on it. That was the night I got back from Kansas City. I'm glad I'm able to help her with school work (even though sometimes I have no clue how to help her). Sometimes it just helps to have another mind to help one think about the problem in another fashion.

When I got back I found out I was admitted to one of the schools I applied too! The first thing I did was call Christie to tell her. Exciting but now I have to make a decision. Real world or more school. I haven't really had much time to think about it because it all depended on what school I got into compared to the job. Now I can really think about it; it just sucks that the deadline for deciding the job is supposed to be today.

I'm going to get some sleep now so I can think about this more tomorrow during the day.