it didn’t have to end like this

I have never had the most awkward conversation in my life.  I don’t really know how to explain it, but it had to do with the last few nights.  I’ve been up on a high; I think the holidays just do that to everyone, but I had my stomach sink tonight.  I guess Mat Kearney put it best:

She said she didn't believe
It could happen to me
I guess we're all one phone call from our knees
We're gonna get there soon

I love that song; I wasn’t on my knees at all.  I just had that feeling that you have when you can’t believe what someone said to you.  For me it hasn’t happened in awhile.  I guess it just reminds me that I’m human.  I’m glad nothing serious happened to anyone in my life.  It was just an emotional issue; we all want to feel needed and wanted.  I guess looking back I don’t see how I should have felt wanted or needed, but hind sight is always twenty/twenty.

I’m glad that I’ve had this week off.  I need to gear up the next few weeks.  I am way too addicted to bears.  I want to get these for my deck.  I think I’m going to run out to Target and see if they have any.  o.O

happy thanksgiving!

I hope everyone had a great thanksgiving day.  I was out last night again.  It was a fun time.  I’m really confused though.  Oh well.

I’m glad that I’m on break but it feels like it is moving so fast.  I hope I can enjoy the rest of it while it lasts.  I can’t decide if I want to go to bed early tonight or not.  I want to go get some things tomorrow, but it might be so busy that shopping isn’t worth the hassle.

I’m watching ESPN right now and they’re showing items about older men.  I want to be a cute old man.  I don’t know if I can top what they’ve accomplished.  They’ve both had long marriages (50+ years) and are 99.  I would be happy to be married that long, but in reality it probably won’t happen the way things are going right now.  Not sure how long I’ll last either if I keep eating the way I do.  It has gotten worse since I’ve been a dental student too.  I just don’t have time so I get fast food.  I’ve been trying to get Subway more though.  That is better than deep fried food.  We’ll see; I guess it all just will work itself out. :-) So I don’t have anything to worry about.

weeeee!

I made it to break!  I am enjoying it so far.  It will be a good time off.  I think two weeks from now will suck, but I’ll have a whole week to study for all of those tests.  Semester is almost over.  I got my first class grade, and it was okay.  Not stellar.

I’ve been having a lot more fun now that I have been able to hang out with friends.  Hopefully I’m not too much of a dork either.  I’ve also done some exploring.  Which is good for me because I haven’t really had that confidence.  I just figure it will all work out eventually.   Tonight should be fun too; going out again :-)

make it through

I have two tests tomorrow.  I just need to make it through and I’ll have some time over the weekend.  I have another big test Monday so there isn’t much relief, but then I’m off the hook for a bit and I can collect myself.

I’ve been through worse.

note

She left a note.

Se hace camino al andar.

Which translates to:

The road is made by walking.

or,

You make the way as you go.

hard to imagine

The last few weeks have gone by very quickly.  I ended up getting sick two weeks ago, and I’ve been pretty busy studying.  Things are just settling into place I guess.  I like hanging out with all of the people in my class.  One of the things that I’ve found it hard to do is find time for old friends.  I really miss them, and I don’t really have any excuses.  I’m just busy and need to find time.  I do like when I do get to talk to them though.

I’m not really sure where everything is going at this point.  I have an idea in my head but I’m not sure that it is going to work out.  We’ll see… I won’t know for awhile.

On another note it is looking more and more like another Florida bowl game for Iowa.  If they can pull off the win next week I’d be excited to go to the Rose Bowl, but the brick wall in front of them is pretty big.  I think the Capitol One Bowl is the best shot.  In any case the trip will be fun, and a much deserved break from school.

I think it is bedtime.