Friday, February 19, 2010

curiosity

I’ve been thinking lately; I don’t wanna grow up!  I’ve always had a childish attitude.  Lately I’ve realized that I’m not ready to be old; or if I am I think I just want to be single.  Currently I don’t have a crush on anyone.  I’m not really looking for that in life right now.  Couples don’t really disturb me; when someone in my class gets engaged I feel like it is expected.  I don’t feel that it is expected of me.  I’m not really sure I even want that in my life anymore.  Things just seem so simple right now.  Class; friends; studying.  I’m pretty complacent.  I just like having friends.  I don’t have as many close friends as I did in undergrad, but I don’t really feel like it is necessary.  I want to open up, but that will come.  I wish that there was just one person that I could talk to; but I like talking to women and I don’t want to intrude on any of their relationships.

I guess I’ll just have to wait until they’re all married; most are engaged, but marriage the other guy shouldn’t feel threatened.  It isn’t my intention to steal them.  I just want someone to talk to.  I miss having all my girls around.  Sigh. 

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